Friday, August 5, 2011

Thinking a lot.

Something I've recently had on my mind lately I just want to explore a little. I'm single, I have been all my life. Now, there are reasons for that, 1) I'm not particularly smooth with my words, 2) I have been socially awkward most of my life, this is actually improved a lot lately. 3) I am fat, and I don't like being fat. Let's explore that for a bit. Now, I know society in general has attached a stigma to obesity and overweight people in general. For good reason, I feel. There are a lot of health issues that stem from obesity, lack of activity, and poor eating habits. All are related. Now, I realize you can be unhealthy and skinny and you can be generally healthy and fat. Right now, I actually meet the latter, I am generally healthy and fat at the moment. This leads me to the second point, generally, beauty is seen in women being hourglass figured and men having abs and muscles or at least being lean (lean applies to men and women). Now, is this all wrong? I feel it isn't. You shouldn't WANT to be obese, I'm sorry. As someone looking to not be obese (nor fat), I feel that I can speak to this to some degree. I am a reasonable adult, and I associate obesity with a poor diet and a sedentary lifestyle. Am I wrong? Generally no, I'm not going to say never, for the points raised above about healthy overweight people.

Now, don't mistake what I'm saying, I'm not looking to ban McDonalds, I'm not looking to go on a crusade against overweight people or to mandate an hour a day of cardio. I believe in freedom and if it's your desire to be 500 pounds, go for it. Don't expect me to feel bad though when you have to pay out the nose at the doctor because you are there a couple times a week. I'm working my way down from 280 pounds, I know how hard it is, but it isn't impossible. My motivation isn't to get girls either, I have a dream (to play professional baseball) and I have a desire to feel good and to like what I see in the mirror every day. I also want to be self sufficient and I know, again, from living with 280 pounds of gut and fat and feeling like a sloth, that if I want to be self sufficient, I'm going to need to be healthy, lest I never have the desire or the energy to drag my ass out of bed in the morning. It takes work to be an independant adult, I can personally attest to that both from personal experience and watching the actions of those around me. If you don't feel good, you won't get anything done.


Sunday, July 31, 2011


I've finally decided, I'm signing the Free State Project pledge and I'm taking my ass to Keene. I've mulled it over for a year now, I've paid attention to what has gone on up there, I've listen to FreeTalkLive, The School Sucks Podcast, The No State Project, Complete Liberty Podcast, and watched almost all of Charlie Veitch's videos. Even still, I sat my ass in my room, and didn't do a damn thing. It's hard, not a lot of people would support the brand of activism I have in mind where I live, and yet, I don't have a lot of money nor do I have a job that pays me all that well. I live at home and I still break even between by car payment, insurance costs, and student loan bills from my school days before I got fed up and quit going. (seeing three graduated friends struggling to find work was a nice last straw)

I'm starting this blog as a journal of sorts. is a journal. I want to lay out my thoughts, beliefs, whatever, between now and the target month of my move, December 2012. I have to say, finally making up my mind to go through with it feels damn good, I haven't been this excited about something in a good long while. I don't have a lot of plans between now and The Move, as it will be called. Right now, live the poor life while saving up is the M.O. for me. I had an idea a little while ago strike me, what if I got into contact with other people looking to make the move, guys (or ladies) without much in the way of funding like myself? We could potentially contract with each other on renting a house or something? Freedom House anyone? If it were big enough, we could fit a nice group in there. Just an idea I had. Thoughts from any readers?